Tonight I had to do a 100yd TT. I was totally ready to rock it and push hard and leave the pool feeling invigorated… didn’t quite pan out that way.
i don’t get it. i’m at a complete loss. i went slower… again. sure, there’s a chance i did an extra 50. around 800-850 i questioned my counting. i felt great in the water. i started out at a decent pace and felt like i held it the whole way, picking it up a little more after the first 500. At 750 i picked it up more and i pushed it hard the last 100 with a full-on sprint the last 50. as soon as i hit the wall and checked my time, my heart sunk.
1000 TT
15:15 (181, 162)
my last TT i did 14:40. right now i just feel like i’m putting so much into this and i’m constantly getting knocked down. each race/time trial i seem to be regressing. i’ve been working with hard with my coach for 7 months and was really hoping by now i’d be much further. am i doing something wrong?
it’s just such a defeating feeling. i’m balancing that fine line of throwing it all away and giving up b/c times are tough and using it to motivate me to push harder… i’m internalizing this realization and striving for the ladder. i just really need something good to happen soon. i’ve put in a good, hard week of training and my workouts have felt good and rewarding. i’m really hoping tuesday’s run TT goes better.
my next race is the ITU on june 21 and i’m really really hoping i can reach down deep and start showing some progress.
